Yeah . They came my house in the afternoon .
played maple while they are doing their stuff .
they brought instrument . ;x
which was pretty werid cause they brought keyboards too .
for the sake of playing
& they did'nt bring it home .
Someone will collect somedays.
So
i actually found out something .
i been living my life meanlessly .
althought with all the choices i made .
did'nt even one i think i made the right choice ,
chatted with them on a conference .
talking about what we do when we are young .
what we plan to do .
what we wanted .
living like what a rich will live .
spending money like i will get more anysooner .
this was our life .
God-ma came my house today .
she asked me if i want to attend a course that she planned for my god-brother .
but is was all too late .
I thought god was unfair .
to bring someone away from me .
a precious one .
i could sense the sadness in my god-ma tone when she talk about him .
but i just could'nt do anything .
i know she is replacing me to him .
as we are much more alike .
the negative part .
stubborn,playful
but he is way too smart ;x
Cried actually .
he was really a precious guy in my life .
My childhood was filled with him .
& without him i won't be dead .
it was a good thing that both our parents was a workaholic .
If not we will no be so close .
Thinking about it .
many things happen .
My life was filled meanlessly .
nothing really has a good ending .
i only create more problem .
about the course .
i was thinking about it .
i dun feel like going .
cause it means i have to leave singapore .
so i most slightly reject .
cause no point going there half a year for a bloody course .
& come back again
totally nothign earn .
but i know if i dun go .
my god-ma will be sad .
haix .
what am i suspose to do ._.
whatever
i am still looking for people who are free .
please chatt with me on msn .
anyone will do .
it won't take a long time ;) .
Cause i need do something fast .